no body anymore

Given the new round of hateful stuff he's said to me...

I cannot see myself being intimate with him anymore.

He said things that could easily make me hate my body.  But I got a powerful reminder recently that those memories I try so desperately to bury - the ones where I was sexually abused and assaulted - they really happened.  I want to keep my body to myself.  He has nothing to worry about there.

I miss Nana.